Tying the strings of the guitar, learning the notes of the piano, i sing....
Breezing through the air, flowing through the waves, i sing...
I
Smell the wind, trickle the water...
And find
It's all in there.


The sands must be still carrying our footsteps, the clouds still heavy with our thoughts. The waves must have gone crazy searching for us, the rains still hoping to hear our laughs...
Why not? That's how we were at the virgin beach, Mandarmoni ... walking, laughing, sometimes lost in thoughts and at other times gone absolutely crazy....
The 4 hrs drive from Kolkata, through great highways, and the narrow broken road of Mandarmoni, could not dampen our spirits. Nor could our absolutely packed in condition in the Tavera, which was carrying 10 of us. However, wondered later, why 4 of us always packed ourselves in the middle row, even before picking up the rest of our friends, when there were many empty seats around ... and it never occurred to anybody! Not even to Aritra, who had to bear much grudges of Shoma and me for fidgeting in his small space allowed to him! The only excuse can be the level of our craziness.
Though we all had been waiting since 6 o'clock in the morning, at different places of the city (again donno why, the car would have taken some time to travel from one place to the other), and though the car was 1 hour late at the first point, yet none of us seemed tired or sleepy. No, we did not play songs in the car during the first few hours. My home-burned CD wasn't in the format that would play there. We rather opted for a chat with breaks provided by Angshuman's some very good and very bad singing.
All contributed to the fun of the journey. We were also occasionally cautioned by him of bathing in the sea at Mandarmoni for in the rainy season (when we went) it was of full of jellyfish that emits a poison 'stricnine' (though later he admitted he was wrong with name of the poison, but certainly not with the poison fact).
At Mandarmoni, our fun knew no bounds. Neither did our craziness. Apart from bathing, what delighted us were striking poses while our friend ‘stricnine’ struggled among the waves to capture shots (for he wasn’t bathing after all). And our falling from the pose at the strike of the waves, when we heard our great pose wasn’t yet captured… But thanks, to him, for all the great moments that he has captured to preserve it in our memorabilia…
Afternoon was the time to let the sea take its toll on our senses. Just to enjoy the sight of the sea and the feel of the breeze… the sound of the sea as if synchronized with the silence of humanity there…
It is so silent that the night would scare you of ghosts if a slight effort had been made to build up an ambience…Likewise, Shoma and me were made the victims. We all gathered in our room at night to share our experiences of ghost stories…And a few of them did it. We, who were never scared of ghosts before, were scared like hell! Each and everything scared us, be it Abhishek’s peeping through the window, or Upal da’s sudden springing up in the climax of his story; though Aritra’s coming with a mouthful of paste foam or Prabal’s thronging out his hand through the window went flop. And after a lot of planning about how to spend the entire night, we kept the entire group awake till 3 am.
Our morning started at 6 am (though Anupam was too angry to be woken up so early after being kept awake till 3 last night). Bright sun greeted us at the beach and then there were no regrets. We heard that there is a river at the far end of the beach. We had started towards it last evening…but a photographic freak of my photographer friends (after all there were 8 cameras with the 10 of us), made our mission late, and then with the rains pouring in it wasn’t completed. So we were determined to reach there the next morning. After a long drive over the beach and it was a superb one, we stopped where the last tyre marks could be seen. A long leisurely walk through the beach, aspersed with red-crabs and shells, could never have been more beautiful. We walked so long that when we looked back to check our car, nothing could be seen but the horizon.
Some water from the ocean came meandering in to the beach. And stepping on the cool water bare-feet was a blissful feeling that perhaps no city spa could give. After walking for a few more miles, we reached the heaven we had set out for. The beach had ended, there was a beautiful narrow river flowing into the sea, the green trees a bit far away on the other side, making the horizon seem much nearer. The soft kiss of the sunlight only on the trees far away made them appear greener. We sat under the shade of the clouds, by the edge of the river and perceived with an unquenchable thirst the aesthetic beauty of the scene.
After touching the lonely horizon, after walking through the salty beach, after dreaming and singing our heart’s desire, after dancing to its rhythm, it was finally time to retrace our steps.
And so we left that world, with all its sublimity untouched, but carrying with us a cavalcade of memories, that a slight touch of it gifted us.


I no longer dream, I apprehend...It's high time I write my tag, lest I should be untagged, as I have been warned by Shakhi.
I'm not really to be blamed for this, but my nature. "An absolutely normal person like me can't be possessing any wierdness!" - so I used to think. And I went on thinking and thinking.....for 2 months....digging my mind and analysing my nature to find out 6 weird things about me!(now i think am excused for being late;))
Thanks to Shakhi for giving me this exciting opportunity to explore myself . And you know what? I could really find 6 weird things about myself! Imagine Weird...Me!!!! God, am I going crazy?!
These are the severe symptoms:
I never let a dream break at midnight:
Yeah! You've read it right. I never let any interruption in my sleep, like getting up to drink water or to kill a mosquito, break the beautiful dream I have been having. After the completion of my mission, when I get back to sleep, I make it a point that I complete the beautiful story of my dream. All I have to do is remember the last portion of my dream after I close my eyes, and am bound to see the rest of it. I sometimes even decide what dream am going to dream that night before going to sleep n believe me, it works!!
I never throw any small thing away:
I tend to keep everything of old like a pen(that no longer works), a copy(that I no longer need) with me coz I feel that every small thing should be kept for each has it's memories to carry. Especially I can never throw away small chits of paper where something of past importance was scribbled coz I have a strange feeling that I might again need it someday, when or how I don't know. Thanks to my mother, or else my home would have been a godown of old antique pieces and papers by now!
Am dumb after a storm when toooo angry or sad:
When am angry, you'll find me throwing things from left to right or from above to below or the vice versas (but am aware enough not to throw brittle things coz I know I won't get a replacement if I break it that way, so I play safe with pillows n all). When I can't find anything, I just stamp my foot on the floor or beat my hands on the table to make an irritating noise (or simply anything that makes noise irritaingly). And all the while and after too I remain dumb, absolutely silent, neither the tsunami or the earthquake can break a word out of me.
The latter remains the same when am too sad. The only difference between the two conditions is a mental one. When angry, my mind remains sometimes blank (ofcourse after purging out the anger in the above mentioned way) but when sad, my mind just forms bubbles of stories and packed with thoughts of I donno what!
See imaginary pictures on walls or in clouds:
If any paint is scrapped off unevenly on any wall that I get to see for some time, or have time enough to stare at the clouds, I start to imagine figures or sometimes even a complete scenary out of the remaining paint or from the shapes of clouds.
Think with head up:
Need to think fast and correct, you'll see my head popped up. Realized it the other day when my friend caught me staring at the roof of an auto when she asked me to think of the fare she owes me.
The watchful eye:
Whenever I feel distracted while studying or working (only at home), I draw pictures of eyes, either on the white space above the page of a book, or the last page of a copy or even on my legs if am sitting with legs folded. And I seem to indulge in competition with myself, trying to better myself with every effort. So this lands up around 7-8 eyes on whichever place is destined to be doomed.
So that's the weird side of me. 6 weird things.Gosh!






